Been high nonstop for years. I realize it’s bad for my health. But at least being high feels good.
My future is on a planet becoming increasingly unhabitable, under a government becoming increasingly fascist, doing nothing but working and still not being able to afford rent or food, never traveling, never making real friends much less finding a life partner, water quickly becoming a luxury, and with zero chance of ever retiring.
So why even bother?
Get active politically. Even if (especially if) we are all just doomed, we can at least “comfort the afflicted and afflict the comfortable”. For me it meant joining up with a group of people doing mutual aid distributing meals and camping supplies to our houseless neighbors.
Getting out and actually doing something useful and productive can help you view the world in a different way. Be a part of the things that are good about the world.
Volunteer Be with good people
And therapy.
If you do anything worthwhile politically you’ll get killed
I know where you’re coming from, but that’s not strictly true. Historically in the US (at least) a lot of radical political leaders have been assassinated, that is true. A movement needs leadership, but it also needs a lot more people doing the real work. Try to shift your focus to things less grand in scale.