Born and raised Muslim, but I think I’m somewhere between that and agnostic now? As a kid I was raised to be extremely religious, then leaned heavily towards hard atheism as a teenager/young adult, but nowadays I just don’t find myself thinking about religion or the presence of a higher being. I don’t necessarily believe that it doesn’t exist, but I don’t necessarily believe it does either, if that makes sense.
It gets a little more complicated since my family and community is Arab, and our particular form of Arabic culture is very closely intertwined with the religion, it oftentimes feels like you can’t have one without the other. It gets hard to pick and choose which parts of Islam I want to participate in (especially considering there’s a lot in Islam that I don’t agree with) and still consider myself a “good” Arab. Hell, at that point can I really even call myself a Muslim? Who knows. But in my eyes religiousness is a spectrum, and I move up and down that spectrum a lot, and I think I’m okay with that.
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