I’ve got a great life, I am not trying to avoid tomorrow or whatever, but I just really like staying awake when I’m absolutely balls ass tired. It’s kinda addicting, like the sleepier you are, the more insanely good the sleep will be. So I find myself struggling, on purpose, to stay awake. I force myself to read books, or watch shows, or go on Lemmy… and I only just realized it’s because I love feeling sleepy.
So uhh, anyone else got this?
As someone who has a tough time getting to sleep most nights, this actually sounds like hell.
Kinda, but for different reasons. I’ve suffered from insomnia for ages, and one of my absolute least favorite things about that is going to bed, then lying there for hours waiting to fall asleep.
So, usually I don’t even bother. I’ll stay up and do something productive or entertaining until I’m about to drop, then finally go to bed and enjoy a relatively small amount of time between my head hitting the pillow and actually falling asleep.
…downside being I gotta wake up for work like 3 hours later, so I’m kinda just chronically tired all the time, but that’s nothing a fuck-ton of caffeine can’t… slightly mitigate.
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Not as extreme, but I get the feeling. The very tired sleep is just crazy good. I don’t stay awake to become extra sleepy, but I stay away, because I realy enjoy that evening hours. Just chilling there and not giving a fuck about anything for a few moments.
The evening hours are the best because it’s the time of day where the world doesn’t want anything from you.
I have a theory. Is there a chance you have ADHD?
There possibly is…
lmao, I was thinking the same thing
Wait why?
It’s a somewhat common thing with ADHD folks. As different parts of the brain start to fall asleep, there’s a sweet spot where our brains are finally balanced. In other words, our limited executive function has adequate energy to manage just the fraction of the brain that’s still awake.
I know exactly what you mean.
It’s like sleep is trying to pull you in with whisps of itself like the enticing fingers of a lover. You act coy, trying to keep afloat because the boundary feels… Exquisite. The whisps become more demanding little by little until finally you succumb and let them take you in and it feels like floating though clouds of immaterial boobs.
And then you are asleep.
Bingo!
Nope. Just like cumming, I want to sleep as much and as quickly as possible.
A going theory is that you’re overstimulated and your body is starved of rest. You’d need to chill with the social media and electronics, go through withdrawal and then relax for a month or two on an isolated retreat in order to “reset” yourself.
I’d be mindful about being so prescriptive with solutions like that. What works well for you may not work well for someone else. But I do appreciate your input! Maybe try sharing it with more “I statements”?
I have no idea why I do this, but I don’t think I enjoy feeling sleepy.
It is, however currently 3:49am where I am. Fortunately I don’t really have plans so I can sleep in some this morning.
Bodies in motion tend to stay in motion. Bodies in rest tend to stay in rest.
I’m right there with you. Doing it now. The more stumbling tired I get, the better.
I think it is not fear of tomorrow but fear of extinction that causes this. I think it comes from a real, not simply intellectual realisation that life is finite and anything lost now will not come back. An instinctive urge to wring the most out of life as the void closes in. The daily version of not going ‘gentle into that good night’.
I do this but I don’t even like being tired, I was in the depression stage where I slept like 18-24 hours at a time for a few years, and ive slowly ended up regularly staying up for 24+ hours for no real reason idk probably just avoiding the few tasks that I actually end up doing. I’ve slept through multiple times when I’ve asked someone to come over to my place at a certain time, stayed up for ages (at least in part) because i get <insert bad feeling> about it even though i’ve literally planned it myself, and then slept through people knocking and ringing my doorbell over and over. im ever so slightly dysfunctional if it isnt glaringly obvious.
I’d rather sleep than stay awake (late at night)
I definitely don’t get in bed until I am sleepy because I don’t want to get in the habit of laying in bed trying to get sleepy. And yeah laying down so sleepy feels so good, so sleepy that I can try to sort of stay conscious while falling asleep, watch it happen.
I wait til I’m sleepy which is usually around 10ish. If it’s the weekend I push through that and squeeze out as much free time as possible but I wouldn’t say it feels good usually around 1-2 am I actually feel pretty shitty to the point I have a hard time getting to sleep.
